death...

i havent written on the blog for nearly 2 months...

recently, im reading a japanese novel..the protagonist in the story got cancer, but he is only grade 11 and 17 years old.  in my opinion, he is really strong.  he wants to protect his lover to not be hurt by the bad news, he broke up with her.  even though, he still died in the end.  

if i am him, what will i do if i have cancer??will i be as strong as him??or as independent as him??for me, he is too brave to face death and to face the rest of his life.  will i be able to do that??  

its too cruel for him to have cancer at this young age...isnt it too sad for him??

can anyone of us imagine what death is like??it is too hard for us to imagine as we havent experienced yet...but is it the end of the world?? or is it the start of the other world?? should people feel hopeless?? or should they feel happy?? or r they all emotionless???

...

is he not suitable for me?? ‘我堅持的，都值得堅持嗎？’

i still dun have an answer..im so unsure for this..

im curious why there is this kind of feeling...

'Lord, please help all of us getting out of the sadness.'

believing in God, it will make our life easier and happier.

He is like our Father that we can always rely on 

and that we can sacrifice everything for Him. 

after becoming an Christian, i felt more relieve.  praying for friends will make your heart warmer and peaceful.  today, i went to AMPLIFIED!!! IT IS AWESOME!!!! i love the atmosphere that is revealed and all the CHRISTIAN SONGS!!!! 

QUESTIONING

If someone ask me "do u still like him?" That is a tricky question that i dont know how to answer. I think i still have those feelings towards him, but not as much as before.  My feelings cannot fade out just as nothing happened, it needs time to recover all the pain that it gone through.  

There is a question inside my head all the time "Is he worth it?"

All i can say is i dont know.  Probably or probably not. Who knows, but i believe everything we do in the world worth something.  

疑惑

在這個感情的世界裡 充滿者無限的刺激及值得去冒險的東西

他能讓你學到很多東西：珍惜重要的人的心

但是在這個情人節快到的時候 女生往往都會送上自己親手做的巧克力

像女生主動的這種情況 男生往往會不珍惜你 而把你呼來喚去

男生這種單細胞動物對感情比較遲鈍 他們往往都是失去了以後

才懂得要珍惜的道理 但是後悔來得及嗎？？如果來得及 還叫做懲罰嗎？

老天爺讓你失去東西就是一種形式的懲罰 

但是拿了你一樣東西 他一定會再給你另外一樣的

但是為甚麼有些人就是沒有拿到呢？難道老天爺不公平？這有可能嗎？

當然，你自己所要的東西都是要靠自己的力量去爭取的

今　俺とお前は何をしるか　

君　何も知らないよ

俺の気持ち　本当に何も知らないよ

けと　そ何の気持ち　今か終わり

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　愛してる

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　君は俺の王子様　

ハビ　バレンタインデー

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What on Earth can be truseted? this is a question that dun really have an absolute answer.  

then..whats love??by watching all the things that are surrounded by me..i figured it out that..

Love cant be trusted...all it can do is hurt you...not wanting to get hurt, then just stop having those foolish dreams about love...love cant bring u anything...no happiness..neither the future... all it can bring is pain in ur heart and tears every night, sometimes even can give u a heart that is hopeless. so leave a space for urself. dun let other ppl have chance to hurt u again..